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For you I was a flame..... Love is a losing game.
Five story fire as you came....Love is a losing game.










.........................What I give to you is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new, no, no just another phase of finding
what I really need is what makes me bleed..............

50 points for finding out who's words those are and from where and what it means to you .




Just tell me how it tastes already.
I'm sick of cooking for you.
The chips are down.

The Butcher's Shop.

you sit on a wooden table watching me sharpen my knives closely. fresh cut meat lying all around you, it's stench wafting up your nose pricking each hair follicle on the way up. You can't look me in the eye. You know I am dangerous. You want to be my friend. You know if you can't befriend me, you stand in my way, and I will bury you as my enemy.
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I apologize about that last banter at the end of the last post, I am just sick of people asking me what's in my mutton. Even worse is when people ask me why it tastes the way it does. It's mutton ! What I do with it is my business, you like it you chew it, if you don't, spit it out and I shall spew you out of my mouth you lukewarm ignoramus.

Anyway. Sorry about that rant. Help yourself to an extra serving of mutton :-

The Art Of war. I never understood the rules of engagement in any form of conflict. So I take what I can from film, literature, real life experience, and make it my own.

Be extremely subtle, even to the point of formlessness. Be extremely mysterious, even to the point of soundlessness. Thereby you can be the director of the opponent's fate.

Sun-tzu, The Art of War. Emptiness and Fullness

One of my all time favorite power figures has been fictional ( based on a real feller, but that doesnt matter ) and his name is William cutting, a.k.a Bill the Butcher from Scorcese's Gangs of New York ( not one of his best films, but worth a watch just for Daniel Day Lewis's spectacular performance as Bill ). Everytime I think of war, I am reminded of the Butcher's ways. Here's his words. He was full of 'em ! WHOOPSIE DAISIE !

........You know how I stayed alive this long? All these years? Fear. The spectacle of fearsome acts. Somebody steals from me, I cut off his hands. He offends me, I cut out his tongue. He rises against me, I cut off his head, stick it on a pike, raise it high up so all on the streets can see. That's what preserves the order of things. Fear.



Such is the human race. Often it does seem a pity that Noah and his party did not miss the boat.

- Mark Twain



Now that you've had a taste of my mutton, How do you like it?

LifeFeedsOnLifeFeedsOnLifeFeedsOnLifeFeedsOnLifeFeedsOnLifeFeedsOnLifeFeedsOnLife....

This particular photograph up there reminds me so much of space exploration. The textured ground reminds me of Mars, a planet I forever feel might hold the future of the earth. carl Sagan in his wonderful book and documentary series ' cosmos ' talked about the possibility of colonization of mars as the first step ( after major babysteps we shall take on the Moon ) to the spread of mankind into the vast expanse of the universe.
I don't really wish to elaborate on my thoughts on this subject, but let me give you the some words by my guru Bill Hicks to conclude that train of thought/rant:-

I'm gonna share with you a vision that I had, cause I love you. And you feel it. You know all that money we spend on nuclear weapons and defense each year, trillions of dollars, correct? Instead -- just play with this -- if we spent that money feeding and clothing the poor of the world -- and it would pay for it many times over, not one human being excluded -- we can explore space together, both inner and outer, forever in peace.

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Ah but until then ! this is necessary. Life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life....you get the drift.




Taken all I can taken all I can, we can take. taken all you can taken you can,
We can take.
Got nothing left to give to you.
Blood suckin parasitic little blood suckin parasitic little
Blood suckin parasitic little tick
Take what you want and then go.

Suck me dry.

Is this what you wanted?
Is this what you had in mind?
Is this what you wanted?
Cuz this this is what youre getting.
I hope, I hope, I hope you choke.

Maynard's words from Ticks n Leeches.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND NOW?
I can serve you some more. Would you like some dessert? Shut the fuck up and
eat whatever you have left on your plate !

Definitely Definitely Definitely No Logic

If you ever get close to a human
And human behaviour
Be ready to get confused
There's definitely definitely definitely no logic
To human behaviour
But yet so irristible
There's no map
To human behaviour
They're terribly moody
Then all of a sudden turn happy
But, oh, to get involved in the exchange
Of human emotions is ever so satisfying
There's no map
And a compass
Wouldn't help at all
Human behaviour
-Bjork

Windows to her souls.

She's everything.

Some more experiments. found trippy windows. Special thanks to cima for being so damn kickass in the blanket, hazem for running around with a speedlight for me, nadia for clicking the shutter for me as I directed it all whilst smoking a ciggarette and confused the audience we collected during the shoot in Al Quoz.

My hiatus ends tommorow, will be done with the hotel shoots, so no more room service :(
Lots of jobs coming up.
Anyone have a 5D they want to sell me? Please let me know. Many images waiting to be processed and many more shoots planned ahead, so expect much more coming up !

GOOD NEWS.I've been accepted for the Pecha Kucha talks on the (remember remember) the fifth of November. So please put it onto your calenders ( if you dont have one, get one, its rather helpful, though only if you believe in time ).

I have alot of sketches/notes, I suspect the blog might see some of them soon. Im just afraid no one will be able to interpret my photoshoot planning. Only one way to find out EH?

Someone get me a ringlight for my professional world initiation please. I want a ringlight !

And a mamiya RB67 with digital back.
WHERES RAJI WHEN YOU NEED HIM !

im rambling. thats because Im exhausted.

Music and lyrics give me direction. Just wanted to divulge that secret that drives me to keep working. You may think thats crass, but different strokes for different folks ! Walid has a special one hour stroke ( more on that later )

I bid you adieu !

DuneTroubles

I live with my justice
And I live with my greed in me
I live with no mercy
And I live with my frenzy feet
I live with my hatred
And I live with my jealousy
I live with the notion that I dont need anyone but me
Dont drink the water
Dont drink the water
There's blood in the water
Dont drink the water

(Excerpt: Don't drink the water, written by Dave Mathews.)

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ExperiMental reloaded.

Many more images coming up, been busy doing commercial work to get some finances for this project and other things I need, like food and um, a camera.

I don't have a camera. Whats that got to do with photography?

More images as soon as I have time to sit down and edit, was in Kuwait before, now in Abu Dhabi.

Please note the little beetle on the bottom left and his cute tracks. the beetle sang revolution the whole time.






The human condition.
Welcome.

Fool you're blind ! Move aside for me !

Why So Senior?

Hungry?

One of the advantages of being in the art world is that my work need not be spoon fed to it's audience. I expect you to put as much as you can on your plate, and chew the content on your own. If you can't swallow it, not my problem :)

I would sincerely appreciate comments, advice, critiques, hate mails, compliments, remarks, observations, reflections, opinions, reactions etc. I stay in my own head alot and some outside perspective is always welcome.

Now, because I don't need to spoonfeed you art enthusiasts, instead of going on and on trying to explain conceptual basis and visual expression, I would much rather barrage you with a bunch of images. Let it be known that I am on a hardcore experimental streak as I felt that my work might end up being a bit repetitive ( or in culinary terms 'sour' ) I have decided to take drastic steps to show you what I have up my sleeve. No titles, just images. Tell me what you like. Tell me what you don't. What would you buy? What makes sense to you? What makes you feel? What makes you want to close this window and watch south park for a while? Which images inspires you ? What do you think my work is expressing? What narratives do you see ? These are some questions. Make up your own ! Go mad ! I'm hungry ! I want your aesthetic and synthetic sense to feed me.

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ha. ha. ha. ha. ho. he. ha. ha. ho.

More updates coming soon.
Im travelling for an assistant photojob to Kuwait and Jordan and Abu Dhabi and Dubai from the 26th to the 15th, so im going to be off the radar for a bit.

If any of you want to buy my prints, do not hesitate to contact me.

Im finished !